Depression

I should be happy with the way everything is going. I have a great relationship with my friends and significant other, and somewhat at the moment, financial security. I even managed to get straight A's on my report card. I'm not ugly, I don't think. Even after all this and what I've accomplished, I can't stay happy, and I find myself falling back into a black hole. I can't seem to defeat it. I think the reason is the fact that I'm so involved. I'm always rushing one place or another instead of stopping and enjoying the scenery. I worry so much about getting to the place then the trip on the way there. I want to drop everything right now and just worry about homework and graduating, but I know it's not in my nature. Anyone who knows me, knows how hard it is for me to give up on anything. Just when I think I'm finished for good, I find some hidden energy, and I do this all over again. Day after day. But for what if I can't enjoy my accomplishments.