Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder

I spent time with my boyfriend Saturday after not seeing him for a week. We had to leave each other, and I was sad for a while.
I went to the movies with my friend later on that day, and we hung out before and went to this nice Thai restaurant that had tea lights at every table and cheerful waiters that took our orders right away. I had the pad thai and some hot tea. He had soup and another dish with rice that I've forgotten the name of. There was a long conversation about politics and global events before we went off to the movie Atonement. I always loved the way he made me think. His philosophy on life seemed familiar yet quite pessimistic. We finished the tea. He paid for it all.

There was a lot of hype about the movie getting seven golden globe nominations and all, but it stretched on and on, but by the end, it made me so sad. There wasn't really a happy ending for the lovers. They never got the time to spend together as they should before they died. My friend said, "There's no hope for real love in the world". I disagreed. People find their true love and are with them their whole life. I wanted to believe in happy endings. On our train ride home he talked about the girl of his dreams, how she didn't feel the same way for him. I thought maybe she didn't know it. He said she must know, but I just don't think she feels the same way. He said how he only wanted to be with her, no attachments, no titles. Just be together and love her, and that's all he wishes for. I was jealous of this mystery girl. Jealous that someone can love so deeply and purely. But it was all wasted, and he felt that it didn't matter if you loved someone unless they loved you in return. I understood that far too well. It hurted me to see him that way. In that moment, I wanted to love him. To show him that love can still conquer all, how it feels to be loved in return with just as much intensity. But it was forbidden. Always that wall. Obligations. I'm with him. How I love him.

I talked to my love on the phone today. We're always talking on the phone mostly, then face to face. I told him how I missed him and he wanted to see me today, but some things came up. There's always something coming up. How about tomorrow. No I'm busy, how about thursday. No...next week..I told him I was frustrated. Aren't you? The truth? Yeah I am but I try not to show it. I'm lonely when you're not here. This is a long distance relationship.
He's right. This distance. It's funny how my only successful relationships with people have been long distance or with emotionally distant people. Must be a venus twelfth house thing. I miss him like hell. Can love conquer all?