Three Ways

Finally I got a little action.

Classes as usual, homework, midterms in two weeks, and I blew off all my worries to spend a Tuesday night over this girl's house with the guy I like. We met this girl, lets say her name is A, at a club meeting me and the guy, named Shawn, went to. A likes me, but Shawn, likes her and possibly me, :: shrug :: It's confusing. Sometimes he gives me signals, sometimes he doesn't. Anyway. Basically me and the girl while he slept, fooled around, and we tried to keep it down but sometimes I wonder if he heard us. He slept on the couch, while we slept on the pallet on the floor. It was a pretty awesome night. I had a girl who desired me over all of those guys who wanted her, but I can't get over my feelings for the guy. We spend all our time together and we're so made for each other. I can't say that about the girl. Sure, she turned me on and the fooling around was good, but I never really wanted to get into anything with her because I don't love her...::sigh:: Besides, her and I have been keeping things a secret from what happened that night from him. Right now I'm in the friend category..we're each others' best friend and it would be funny if I told him I hooked up with the girl he likes. So vola...I'm in some deep shit.

I slept over his house yesterday, because we decided to bake some cookies for this event, and while I was cutting out heart shape cookies, he would come behind me and hug me tight, sometimes kissing me on the cheek, and I would just melt. Got damn we fit so perfectly. Whatever. We'll see where it goes.